Grad School or Not?

What should I do with the rest of my life? Is the question that I'm thinking about that I'm almost at the end of my undergraduate career in Cal State Long Beach. It's been an intense but also a fun journey; however now I'm thinking about when I graduate from here, what am I suppose to do? I have been avoiding this question for a while now and I know what I want to do but not sure how to get there. Today on campus there was a graduate fair by the friendship walk and there were different kinds of schools and programs being offered. Hannali (my friend )and I passed by through some schools, I mainly was looking at School Counseling. There was San Diego State, Chapman and Loyola Marymount . Just attending this fair made me aware about the future and about where I'm going to be at.

So, this is the first step for my future. I have been doubting though, what if I'm not capable in getting into a grad program, what is my second choice? What is my life will be then? I know I shouldn't be thinking negatively but I just can't help it. I need to be realistic. So I'm not sure what to do?

Grad  School or No? 

Busy Week

I guess I haven't had time to sit down and write. You know with school and all I haven't been able to sit for 5 minutes and write what's been on my mind. Now I have at least a couple of minutes to write, I've been pretty  busy enjoying my last year of college. I just pasting myself to do well my last year and to be able hold a position in a student organization. So far, it's been pretty tense and apart from that having time to hang out with my friends. It's been a wild ride so far and it's not even the middle of the semester yet. And apart from school I'm trying to get a job so I start driving, I want to own my life already. I just feel like a burden to my parents and I want to help them out after all what they've done for me. So I'm working on that... 

Other than that, my life has been busy like I said before and I don't have time to worry about other things such as guys. :) That's great because I finally have a distraction that keeps me away from that topic however there are times in which I do think about... yeah I'm not going to finish that sentence. But anyways, this weekend pretty busy as well, tomorrow La Raza Student Association, the org that I'm involved, we're having  our yard sale. And on Sunday, we are having our BBQ (Carne Asada) which I can't wait for. I'm excited for these two events however I just feel that things aren't according what I had expected to be. I mean I love being an officer it's just that...

Yeah.... let's see how my weekend goes. 

Tuesday Sept. 11

Not sure how I'm feeling right now. I guess I'm doing alright but not exactly sure how I'm feeling. I'm happy in one hand that it's Tuesday and school is offically has kicked in but on other hand I don't know what's going on in my life. I mean, I feel that I'm heading back to the same girl that I use to be and  I don't want that. I just want to focus in school, in raza and now in Destino thanks to my good friend Alyssa but things aren't going according to plan. Not sure.

In other words, this evening I'll be attending a Training session that F.U.E.L will be hosting that will help the volunteers such as me to get trained to help students with their Deferred Application. I'm looking forward in going. Other than that, ummm loving my classes this semester. Especially CHLS 490: Youth, Immigration, Education that I'm learning a lot, like today for instance we were talking about integration of immigrants in society today. A very interseting topic by the way, any how talking about that lead us to think about strengthening our borders if we agree to it or not? the professor gave us a scenario that citizens would think about immigrants. We've been checking out some numbers (data) regarding the population of latinos in the U.S. and we've been discussing about it and what does this mean. Any how the professor ended the class making us think what would we choose. Interseting huh?

I'm sitting in La Raza, waiting for 6pm to come.... :) 

First Days

It's only the first days of school and yet I have this great euthuaism for each of my classes. For some reason, I'm super excited for this semester, I don't know why I just am. I don't know if the retreat had anything to do with it but I'm glad I'm feeling like this. I think it's the first time in my college career that I love my classes that I'm taking.
Chls 330 MW 9:30am-10:45am
Geog120 MW 11am-12:15pm
Chls 490  T/TH 11am-12:15pm
L/ST 400  T  5pm-7:45pm
EDSP355A W 4pm-6:45pm
I'm taking 15 units, hopefully I'm not over doing it because other than school I'm planning to be involved in campus. So, let's see how that goes.

But other than school issues, well nothing much is happening, well there is but I really can't say because what if that person happens to read this post. I don't the truth to come out, so to be in the safe side I'll keep it down low. Well too late for that if I may say so myself. But yeah, nothing major is happening to me. I'm just glad to see all my friends this week :). And hopefully this semester turns out a great one.