Random Thoughts.

Words can't describe how I'm feeling at this moment. I'm sitting outside my room and looking up at the sky and wondering about the future and how it pressures someone to do something that they don't want to.  Now in days many are going toward careers that make money rather doing something that they are passionate about. I know that not all cases are like that but I've seen this within the people that I know and it sucks to do something that they don't enjoy doing. But let's face it, based on what's happening these recent times what other option does it leave us with. Personally I don't care about money but it's a necessary to keep us alive.

My emotions are all over the place this week. One day I feel happy and then I feel unhappy I don't understand the causes of these mood changes. Is it that I miss going to school? Nah, can't be it's been only a week. Or is that I miss hanging out with my friends? Maybe, I miss them so much and they know who they are. Or is that I don’t have anything to do? Maybe, I'm usually in a good mood when I'm actually doing something for instance right now, I feel happy and peace just writing my inner thoughts. People say I'm a good writer but I say I'm good with words. It's true, I write from the heart rather just making up stuff. I don't focus about the grammatical mistakes but rather the message which I believe it's the most important part. 

Other random thing about me is that I transition to a different topic every time. I can not stay within one topic I find it the need to talk about something else. Whenever I start writing about one thing, I usually think about other things that I want to write about and can't wait to finish my thought to write it down. You see I have a big mind and I want to write about everything that I'm thinking. Writing for me it's like therapy, it relaxes me. People may have Yoga , Running, or Walking to relax them and I have writing. Writing is a way to express the feelings I have without actually saying it someone's face.

What a wonderful day! I almost forgot today was Monday, it felt like a Sunday just because I spent all day at home with my family. I love my family, maybe they over protect me that's only because they love me so much and appreciate that they care for me. But sometimes I do wish they could be more less protective and let me out once in a while. I understand why are strict and I guess I deserve it based on the behavior I acted but I think I learned me lesson. At this rate I will never meet my prince charming. LOL. Yes prince, I still believe in happily ever after unlike a lot of people out there whom just get together because of physical attraction rather than personality wise. Yeah, I want to meet my guy someday and I hope soon because I don't want to die single :) jk. I know one day he will come and sweep  me off my feet.