How am I suppose to ignore everything that I have within me? Besides the thoughts of assignments and other important dates I still can not get my mind off everything, especially "what's his face". No matter how hard I tried to procrastinate on my assignments there is no instant that I do not think of him. What's wrong with me? Why can't I go one day without thinking about him? I hate that I have to waste my time writing about someone who I know will never see me more than a friend. I need more busy work.... more and more until I realize he is no longer in mind. As I'm walking to one place to another, I try to think about school and how I'm stressing myself out but at some point he comes out. H. I want to say it's just an obsession but no, its not. Today prior to my class this morning, I took a 2 hour nap at Raza, and guess what I was thinking (dreaming) about, well him, not hard to guess. But that dream seem more than a dream it seem like reality, it felt so real as he was there by my side and hugging me. How weird is that? Seriously I think see someone about that.
But in other news, today I feel a bit better than yesterday. Seriously, that trip that I made during the weekend messed me up. Was it worth it? Yes, I had a blast with my girls. But I just wish I was a bit responsible though. Things happen for a reason right? But this time I really think that I didn't make the right choice thought. Or I don't know I'm more confused more than ever. Mi friend. I wish he could just text me again, I don't want to text him because I don't want to bother him. I'm going to give him his space. I just don't want to lose him, I really don't. I remember the first time I met him. HaU & HU So Cal Bash @El Dorado Park. HAhaha back in May 2010. I've known him about 2 years and 6 months. Memories <3. I want him to know that he knows me and he knows that the way I acted yesterday wasn't me. Oh get this, yesterday I went to the student health center and told me that I wasn't doing well and sent me home and rest. And fortunately this morning I was doing better.
Well lets see how this goes.!!!!
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