True Colors

"Cara vemos, corazones no sabemos"

You really don't know a person until their true colors come out. Why does it hurt to find out that the person who you thought you knew turns out to be a jerk? I really thought he was my friend; it saddens me to realize that I never really knew him. I don't know if he has been always like this or is it since that night that everything has changed. The more I think about it the more i realize his change of his behavior, I've never seen this side of him before. After this disappointment I'm really doubting who is actually my friend. I'm tired of people always disappointing me, did i do something wrong that I bought this upon myself? Did I cause anyone any pain for me to for me to deserve this? Why am I always meeting the wrong people in my life? Disappointment after disappointment it seems like the universe doesn't want me to be happy. I try and try to live my life as much as possible but its hard when you are surrounded with disappointment. I'm so angry and frustrated with pain; pain that I wish I could make it disappear. I do not want to cry for someone who doesn't give a damn about me, doesn't care if he hurts my feelings; what kind of friend does that another friend. Enough is enough I can not let him or anyone bring me down again especially that finals are coming up. He's not going to bring me down. No!!!! I need to stop thinking about him and move on and concentrate on my work. I hate that I have waste time thinking about him, not worth it. 

Not worth it. Not worth it. Not worth it. 

I don't need friends like him in my life.